my boyfriend of 5 years cheated on me last month. I decided I was going to try to make it work and dismissed all those feelings of mistrust and anger. ever since he told me we have been ups and downs with very few ups. so far he has done nothing to prove to me that I am not wasting my time, if anything he has shown me that I am not very important to him. all of this coming from a man who wanted to marry me, from a man just over a month ago was looking at houses with me, and the worse… from a man who was my best friend.
im not sure if I am single or if we are still together. last night he got drunk and failed to come home so I have locked him out of our apartment but I know im week and if he tried I would let him back.
now I guess im supposed to forget about how im feeling and try to do some work. but all I can do is wonder if he has a spare key.